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"Every moment is a fresh beginning."

I've definitely been thinking about what the next step is for my life & somehow I obviously need to look into a possibility with taking classes at Utah Valley University in the fall. Not here to admit this will be an absolute official decision for me at all, but it would really give me opportunities to want to learn more and step out of my comfort zone. I have not necessarily looked closely into what kinds of courses I would see myself wanting to sign up for and feel comfortable with---but who knows?? I'll never know unless I make the effort with being able to try and see if this is something I want to give myself a shot in the real world. 

I would really think with having an experience like this, would open up a door of endless possibilities for me to learn new skills and stretch myself in ways that I never have imagined. I really do think this is an opportunity for me to have just even a semester of going to just one class and seeing how much it would benefit me in the long run. One of my dreams throughout the last nine years has been getting a paid position with being a teacher's aide in a classroom and somehow unless I give myself a chance to achieve this goal--- I need to make it a priority once in for all. I am hopeful this could end up being either one of the greatest chances I have ever taken or just simply decide to do something else. It has really given me something to contemplate on and maybe within the next few months, in trying to just figure out what would be the most effective plan for me and sorting through things in order to make it become a reality.

My mom has reminded me that are other ways for me to develop my talents without spending a lot of money and quite frankly I could not in some ways agree with that more. Unless anything happens with any of this at all in the next several months, I will have to do a lot on my part in making this become a real and legitimate goal for myself to see what is there at the university to tackle straight on. Please stay tuned for updates if there is anything I can share with you guys later down the road and unless there is a different opportunity that urges me to give a shot for... I will make sure to let you guys know on here at some point :)

Friends Forever

Tylee,

You and I have only known each other for a brief period of time, but you have influenced me in more ways than one and cannot thank you nearly enough for the legitimate times we shared together along with everyone at the NINJA Conference earlier this month. I am so grateful for your friendship in my life so much and the way you motivated me to always push myself to do the best I can in just almost everything I set my mind to. You were such an absolute gem of a person to get to know & just simply to be around more than anything in this world. I also genuinely cannot thank you nearly enough times for the way you have impacted my life and continuously motivated me to see the good in everything that life has to offer. You are truly such an amazing friend and one of the things I will never forget is when you told me at the dance when we were at NINJA and letting me know this: "It's all going to be okay and we will get through this!!!"



It has literally stuck within me from the moment you said those exact words that it will continue to be alright and no matter what happens, I can always look for lots of positive things in life everyday. Thank you so much for being who you are and not only just being at a disability conference as a Staff, but somebody who I highly consider to be one of my new friends whose example is gonna live within me for many years to come. My life will honestly be never the same again from having gotten the chance to meet and know such an amazing person like you!! You have never ceased to amaze me with your positive attitude and just trying real hard to never give up on what is most important. I truly wish you all the best as you prepare for a new chapter in your life and thanks so much for making an impact on the lives of people with disabilities. You have definitely left an imprint on me that I am forever grateful to have in my life, more than anything and hope both of us can run into each other at some point in time down the road & catch up on stuff. 

Talented

Youthful
Legitimate
Extraordinary
Enthusiastic 

It does feel a little bit uncomfortable for me to be sharing this on here, because I never want to make anyone the center of attention!!! I have definitely been influenced from this person in ways that I can not thank them nearly enough for and despite we have only known each other for a brief time, I have certainly been able to recognize the potential I have in myself to see the positive in my life everyday, if not more often than not. I am so grateful for this amazingly talented, legitimate acquaintance of mine who has never failed to lend a helping hand for people like myself & encouraging them to just always follow their dreams no matter what it takes!!!

Ninja Conference

I'm truly grateful for the privilege I had to return back to my favorite youth leadership conference as one of the mentors. I absolutely loved every single minute of being able to share my positive energy with some of the absolute most legitimate friends I could ever ask for. I really enjoyed getting to not only help in various ways at this conference, but also teaching one of the classes there is definitely a highlight that I will cherish forever. It was such an amazing experience for me to have my own peers see one of their own in a different way that had never been done & I am grateful to have made some kind of an impression on them. 

Shout Out:

I've probably done this too much-- but I cannot even begin to express the gratitude & appreciation that I have for all of our legitimate staff who was there with us. All of them are not just only there doing their important jobs that they do on a regular basis, but I would definitely consider most of them to be my closest friends. I can honestly admit each of them continues to play some kind of a significant role in my life and never fail to make me smile or remind me that I can do hard things- regardless of whatever that is. I just want to thank all of you for the friendships that we share with each other and will continue on for many years down the road. 

Favorite Conference Highlights:

- Spending quality time with all of the legitimate staff and participants we had there all week long. I am so incredibly grateful for the dedicated, hard-working, friendly, helpful people that you are and will forever be as many more years quickly pass on. 

- Staying up late into the evening hours and laughing till my heart was tired!!! No kidding if you ask me... I could go on forever about this!!! :) 

- The Flying Squirrel (Pretty much speaks for itself and it is the most legitimate high activity ever on this planet!!!)

- Became friends with everyone there and definitely made memories that will stick with me for the rest of my summer vacation. 

- Enjoyed some delicious and refreshing Aggie Ice Cream on the Quad with everybody on the grass, not to mention played some of the most legitimate Aggie games ever!!!

- Danced my heart out as much as I could possible with everyone and can only hope to do it again in the future!!! (Fingers Crossed)

- Teaching one of the classes at this conference was one of the most unforgettable moments for me in ways that I could not even describe into words. I really liked having all of my friends at this disability conference see me in a professional way and if I could do it all over again--- I would not hesitate with being able to say YES!!! Did I forget to mention that I was also one of the Keynote Speakers?!?!? So much more about this later on in a different blog post to come. 

Big Bang Theory

Whenever one of my favorite shows on television comes to an end, it always leaves me with a sentimental feeling inside that cannot be described into words. I have truly loved being able to see these unique and special characters portray the funniest story lines ever... but also giving me a real chance to feel alright with myself. I have always struggled with being in social environments and it makes me almost want to not be a part of them anymore for various reasons. There is truly nothing more awkwardly uncomfortable for me as an individual, than to feel excluded by people who just only from what I perceive is something they would otherwise not have to deal with. That is clearly their problem and not mine to begin with if you ask me.... But this legit comedy show was able to give me an escape from the fact I am not like everybody else out there!!! It truly left an imprint in my heart that I know will never be replaced for many years to come and I cannot thank all of them nearly enough for the past decade they spent making all of their fans laugh. 

I really loved this sitcom more than anything in the world & the laughs it gave me every single week was fantastic. I may never know what it feels to be an actress in the entertainment industry & just trying to find your place in the world is never short of an easy job. I absolutely cannot thank each of the remarkably talented cast whose jobs were to put smiles on our faces and share their expertise with the world of scientific knowledge, which never ceased to amaze me in more ways than one!!! I am so grateful for the message this popular hit sitcom shared with all of the fans, in recognizing we all have stuff about ourselves that we wish never effected us like they do on a regular basis. 

I will greatly miss not being able to laugh out loud every week with these legitimate characters who never failed in putting me in a better mood & giving me a reason to look at life in a unique way. It's been really difficult as I think about the fact, this show will not have anymore new episodes to share with their fans and quite frankly... it will never be the same for me after this. I am grateful for all of the many reruns that will be on forever and continue to make me laugh whenever I need it during a very hard time. 

Sheldon, Amy, Leonard, Bernadette, Penny, Howard & Raj:

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart, for letting me watch you on my television screen for so many years and bringing laughs to me that no other show could topple. I am truly grateful for your legitimate comedic talents, expertise knowledge about the world of science and not to mention- being like a second family in my own home. My life will never be the same again now that this great sitcom has concluded with a bang that I know will forever hold a soft spot in my heart. Thank you all for helping me to understand the importance of what it means to be different in your own skin and I'll admit even though I am not a scientific expert on anything--- I am forever grateful to have been a very small part of watching a show that not only made me laugh, but gave so many reasons to look at the brighter side of life everyday. I know each one of you will forever hold a special spot in my heart for many years to come and not to mention, when I watched the emotional last episode of this show-- "Big Bang Theory" it brought tears to my eyes and couldn't keep them from rolling down my face. It has been nothing short of extraordinary getting to watch the best of the best characters perform with their whole hearts and the time your crew put into making this sitcom into what it became, may never be something I will know about in person-- but I felt like a part of this amazing group of friends who didn't fail to make me laugh so hard that I couldn't breathe. I may have never attended a live taping of this show on CBS in the audience seats, I felt like just watching the show from home was almost as if I was really there in person seeing you fantastic actors/actress' do what you loved for almost a decade just reminded me of the good in this world. Like Sheldon mentioned in the final episode during one of the most heartfelt speeches ever, "In my own way... I love you all." I genuinely wish I could every one of you people this same exact line and instead with me trying to keep a smile on my face, nothing but tears of gratitude would stream down my cheeks. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for just simply being who you are and having a legitimate sitcom that always started off with a big BANG!!!!

Summer Plans

2019 NINJA Youth Leadership Conference (Logan, Utah)

This disability conference has been a part of my life for awhile & didn't really expect it to be as much fun as it was until after I got there. It has really opened up doors of learning and growth for me to just simply give a message that can empower so many to know they have a voice. I am truly grateful for the many amazing people who have encouraged, inspired, motivated me to be a better person & not ever being afraid to speak up for myself when it is necessary. Unfortunately... There is not much for me to share about this right now and since the event has not kicked off yet--- I am trying to be patient with making the best of whatever happens throughout my summer vacation. More updates about this later on and be sure to stay tuned for them!!! 

Ronald McDonald House Charity Breakfast (Salt Lake City, Utah)

As being one of the Utah Miss Amazing Queens, We were invited to do a service project and making breakfast for the families of those who are at the Ronald McDonald House Charity. I am truly excited for an opportunity with being able to give back and make an impact on these families lives in a very small way. I am truly grateful for the many opportunities that will allow me to do something a lot more bigger than myself and in hopes it will be amazingly successful in more ways than one. 

National Miss Amazing Pageant (Chicago, IL)

It's obvious that I have not been able to write up much about this, but I can only hope for the best in whatever does end up happening. I am not determined to be competitive against any of the other participants or anything of that nature, but I am hopeful it will give me a boost of confidence and an opportunity to make a good impression in some way or another. I am grateful for this new adventure in my life and getting to share in that experience, with some of the most amazing young ladies ever is a dream come true!!! 

Final Week

YESTERDAY AFTERNOON---I was volunteering in my favorite third grade class and walked into assist the teacher in a variety of tasks that needed to be done, but little did I know what would happen next a couple of minutes later. Some of the girls from my second grade class, braved walking through the rainstorm outside and surprised me with a green house plant along with a brief thank you note. It was obviously quite thoughtful and nice of them to do, but it really made me question in my mind about whether or not, I felt like I deserved that at all--due to the circumstances that I found myself dealing with. I did not want to necessarily read through any of that thank you note because the first half of this school year was nothing but awful and an opportunity for me to put those emotions off to the side. As I read through the brief thank you note, I was not at all if you ask me just unimpressive I felt not knowing if it was even close to sincere or just another excuse to not have me come back. There is only so much more I could share about this and yet it only gives me reasons to emotionally vent on the fact, I will never want to have this kind of a school year ever again!!!!

Along with this, I also got a very heartfelt thank you note from the third grade teacher & her sweet class!!! It truly made me reflect on how much I not only impacted the teacher's life, but also each of her students as well throughout the school year. It was such an absolute feeling of fresh air and gave me a chance to think about why I love what I do at the school every single time I return back. I really felt an overwhelming sense of unconditional love for that entire class filled of amazing kids and just getting to know their teacher as well as themselves was an experience, I will cherish forever. I am so grateful for the patience, kindness, friendship, dedication, hard work both of those teachers put into everything to make the school year one that I will look back on with a smile. 

This entire school year was one of the hardest and most rewarding experiences in my life. I never did expect things to turn out like they did at times and somehow I was able to survive through it all with my chin up. I most definitely shed a lot more tears of frustration, stress, uncertainty of whether I just wanted to complete the school year with that second grade teacher because it torn me apart in ways that it never should have. I am grateful that the both of us were able to mellow out a little bit and if you must know, I could have easily given up on the opportunity with trying anymore to make it into some kind of a positive learning experience for myself. I will never want to make another excuse for trying to pretend like I enjoyed the time, I spent in that second grade classroom and realized that I did not think it was the perfect time for me to volunteer with that person either. 

Thanks so much to both of those teachers who went out of their ways, to make me feel needed & not to mention a part of things with their students. It was an absolute delight for me to learn from both of them throughout this past year and needing to understand that we can all do our part, in searching for the positive things in life instead of the stuff we do not want to deal with. 

#SummerGetaway #VolunteerAide #NinthYear #MySoCalledLife #LearningExperiences #Happiness #LookForwardToNextYear #ImJustSaying #Randomness #Blessed #Gratitude 

Belated Post

It's been a very long time from when I last posted on here, but life continuously gets busier from time to time and there is not much for me to share with you all. Aside from what I have written up on this blog over the course of these past few months, it has certainly given me an opportunity to learn and grow into a better person than I ever could have imagined. I am definitely not sure what the newest chapter of my life has in store for me, but it will be an incredible new adventure to look forward to w/ so many amazing people. 

After what has felt like such a very long roller coaster ride, I am ready for a new change and in hopes things will turn out a little bit better than they have in the past. I know it has only given me a chance with being able to learn from my mistakes and take into consideration that it is part of life, whether we like it or not. This experience for me has been one of the most difficult and yet at times, it gave me an opportunity to look at everything from a very different point of view.

Self Advocacy Conference (Tomorrow Afternoon)

This conference has been a long time process for me and the ones who have helped put it together---I am looking forward into what this turns out like for everybody involved. I am excited for the chance to share my presentation about volunteering and the impact it has had on my life, throughout the last several years. I can only hope it will motivate others to volunteer in their own communities and just simply make an impact in the lives of other people. I don't necessarily have much to share with you all right now about this event taking place tomorrow afternoon, but I am hopeful it will turn out not only as a fun conference to have fun with everybody...also just being inspired to know that you can accomplish whatever it is you set your mind to.