Imagine

One of the most powerful and beautiful movies that I'd ever seen in my life, but at the same time it was able to remind me of how in spite of what someone has done wrong-- we can find room inside each of our hearts to forgive. I will never forget several years ago, when my older sister who was only thirteen years old performed this lyrical dance to this very song for my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary celebration. My dad perfectly described this song title as imagining what it would be like to be near the Savior when we come or when we meet him, but having said that-- it was a completely different experience last night than I ever anticipated.


This movie talks about how the powerful song titled "I Can Only Imagine" came to what it is today and for me, I definitely couldn't help but want to know more about it's background. I'll never know or even let alone fathom the pains Bart Millard, who wrote this song went thru in his life to become the person he is today. I would have liked to have to done something to keep him away from his situation at home with this dad, and yet all I could do is just watch from an audience's perspective about what it means to really change ourselves for the better, regardless of what our struggles are. It is never too late for us to want to recognize God who is in the details of our lives and wants us to continue to be strong for him, despite how hard things can get for us on this earthly journey.



I know that Bart must have cried himself every night with the intention of just wanting to see a better day and yet it continued to weigh him down for so many years, growing up in a home where he didn't feel loved or wanted. Each of the emotions that came over me during this film was incredibly powerful and emotional, all at the same time. It was hard for me to watch this young kid go through so much extreme & difficult circumstances, when he could have easily just ran away from home in order to never put up with his dad's abusive behavior.


I really cried pretty good throughout this film, cause it was more than just any movie out there in this world--It motivated me to understand the important gripping reminder of forgiveness and seeing God change people, from this angry monster into the most godly person that Bart had ever met in his life. 



My message to all of you about this film is "Try to imagine your life in a perspective of how God would see you being and figuring out the ways we'd respond to anything that we are dealing with, to just simply never lose hope." I know it is always there for us to take hold of whenever we need it at any given moment and I am grateful for that knowledge in my own life, more than anything else. Take a look at this powerful music video and the tune of this song, is incredibly catchy and I've not been able to quit listening to the message behind it ;) 

MercyMe - I Can Only Imagine

Favorite Song

I am so grateful for the powerful influence that music has in our lives and the messages we hear in those lyrics can definitely make us reflect on the important things. I've always been a fan of Carrie Underwood for some time and listening to her beautiful voice as she sings, has really touched my heart in multiple ways than I could even put into words. Over these last few days, I have been just sitting at my computer and listening to her new song titled: Cry Pretty and just from paying close attention to the words in what she is conveying has left me almost in tears. It is a very emotionally raw anthem about how we let our emotions take over and try not holding them back from anybody else. I've certainly had my fair share of experiences with letting a person know, exactly how I feel about something on my mind and then stepping back to realize-- "It may not have been a good idea with having done that and immediately wanting to erase it out of my head. At the time, I was really upset in not having known what I needed to fix in order to not have made a complete fool of myself in anyway, shape, or form. I wanted them to know exactly what kind of pain and heartache they did not realize was a mistake. I have listened to this song a number of times & restarting it from the very beginning just to replay the chorus because of how catchy the tune of it is. The message in this song has really struck a chord with me, even though I've never had a physical incident happen to me in the last couple of months... but at the same time, there are so many things I have taken away from it. 

Sometimes I've had my emotions take over me in a situation and never prepared for what would come afterwards. It's definitely given me something to think about over and over again, regardless of what I know is most correct when dealing with any situation. I feel so much more at peace with myself from where I was before in just wanting to confront the person with emotional frustration, but then seeing the bigger picture right in front of me. 

In this powerful song written by the lovely Carrie Underwood, I have been able to show my truest self in front of people and not hiding away from that. I know what I am perfectly capable of being able to handle and focusing on this past year... I have learned so much more about who I am inside and outside in spite of anything else that it made me feel like. At any given moment, I would have wished to walk away from somebody who betrayed my trust in order to make themselves feel a lot better about who they are. 

All of us have emotional and painful scars that we wish could be disappeared in a second, but at the same time we all need to face life with courage in spite of what we are faced with. I am not certain if there isn't anything more we can do about them, expect try to be strong in the face of adversity & w/ keeping a smile on my face even if it's not the happiest time ever. Always remember who you are & not letting the downs of life tear you apart, because it might just leave you to want to cry pretty.

Forever Changed

My little niece Skye made her official debut earlier this afternoon and honestly could not be more thrilled for my older sister to finally become a mom!!! It is truly amazing to know that in spite of everything that made me feel incredibly nervous in not having any experience with infants before, has certainly raised my expectations.



There is probably so much more for me to learn & understand with becoming an auntie for the very first time ever, but seeing pictures of my niece will continue to help me feel more comfortable with this new phase in my life. I am excited to see her in most of her cute girly outfits that will probably not get worn very much but at the same time, she will most likely  get new ones between now and then. I am grateful she is part of our family for the rest of eternity and super thrilled to get to see her in person someday down the road.

My niece Skye is the cutest little girl ever and I'm thrilled to be her auntie for the rest of eternity... I was very much nervous about how much I was going to love this little niece of mine, but then when pictures started coming up on my iPhone- it all started to make sense in my head & everything is just falling into place. I am grateful for the opportunity to be this little girl's auntie and getting to show my unconditional love for her is going to be such an amazing experience with the help from my mom to let me know how to handle everything.

Thanks so much to everyone who has sent their best wishes and love to our family, during this new chapter of our lives!!! It is so surreal that she is finally here with us and someone that I can share my unconditional love to as the years pass by. I am so grateful to be her auntie & see her become the cute little girl that she will become one day!!! I know it is such a big adjustment for me, but it is one that I am most certainly going to give my best at with any chance I have. 

Auntie Nerves

TOMORROW AFTERNOON/EVENING---My mom is headed down to Southern California with helping my older sister and her husband welcome my little niece Skye who will be here either some time tomorrow or Tuesday. It's certainly taken a toll on me with how I've tried to adjust with a lot of changes that are gonna take place in a few days and whether or not, we are prepared let alone ready for this experience at all whatsoever... is just simply going to be here before we know it. I am some what worried about how all of us will perceive with this little girl who will be changing each of our lives forever and can only hope for the best in what is to come. Since I've never had any experiences with having younger siblings at home to take care of at all, I'm really quite freaked out with just ALL of the many things that I will need to get adjusted to and keeping a positive outlook on all of it. I feel thrilled for certain about my older sister becoming a mom and having unconditional love for this cute little girl who is going to change their lives forever. I have enjoyed being around little kids for almost eight years now and the experiences that I've had with them this year alone, have been nothing short of unforgettable!!! It definitely took me a little bit of time with getting used to everything and finding myself learning to love first grade students, which I will admit was the most amazing experience that I ever had in my life. With this new little niece coming into my life, I will only hope to have as much fun and enjoyment getting to see her personality come out as she grows up into a beautiful lady. I am incredibly nervous with what to expect from all of this and can only hope for the many memories I'll hope to make down the road as the years pass by.