Words

Sometimes I really wish that the words all of us would share with people didn't come across feeling like "Little Toy Guns" and not realizing in those moments what was really going on at the time. I know for me it's never felt like that way until a month ago, when I wrote up two blog posts that indicated my personal/emotional toll on a situation that left me in absolute tears all day long. Every single facebook post that I saw of people that I knew coming up onto my news feed, it felt like one of those "Little Toy Guns" going off as loud as it possibly could & then doing it for extenstive periods of time. Obviously, it has never fully occurred to me that how I reacted was such a nuisance on me and from that time on leading up today, I have never wanted to experienced anything like that for as long as possible but you didn't hear it from me. Over the last month or so, it has literally taken it's toll on me in a way that I never fully expected to hear and yet some people continously shoot off those guns everyday without recognizing the damage that is right behind them. I'm not writing up this blog post to make you all pretend as though it wasn't anything you've not already heard before, but when does that moment in your life make itself welcome and you feel perfectly at ease with what is currently taking place???? For me, I feel as if the words coming from a blog post like this one are not anything short of a another reason for someone to sigh as loud as they can and roll their eyes all the way back to their head, but I'm not going to be the person who firmly clears to explain to someone that it offends me more than anything you could see right in front of them. I am not someone whose never going to feel like this a grudge for anyone to just take a hold of and pretend to be feeling okay with it, even if they have no idea what it's making them feel like deep down inside. 

I AM...

Confident. Determined. Kind Hearted. Genuine. Honest. Truthful. Fabulous. A Daughter Of God. Wonderful. A Good friend who speaks the truth regardless of what they are going through in life. Someone who speaks their mind even if it is hard and unfair in any kind of situation. STRONG. Beautiful. Willing to stand up for herself and let her voice be heard. Not afraid to let her friends know what she is thinking at any given moment. A Leader/Self Advocate. Hardworking. Trustworthy. Loving person with a heart of gold. A real person with emotions/feelings that are not going to be silenced. Powerful in the things I'm willing to let people know about me.