It was literally not even kidding the longest day of my life, yesterday as I spent all of my time up at Lagoon Park and couldn't even remember when the last time I was there. It certainly felt kind of good to have made the effort of going there myself, but seriously wished I hadn't for many reasons. I really felt completely nervous and emotional about spending time with people who rarely ever speak a word to me anymore and just not being able to say things that could help them out. It has not been the most happiest time in my life having been through so many difficult emotions and heartache, about some of the toughest decisions that I ended up making. It was honestly the most not so fun experience like I had originally anticipated it would be like and at times, part of me just literally wanted to go home and not deal with this situation anymore. I didn't really want to be up at Lagoon under these shattered yet broken circumstances and only would have wished that I didn't make the trip in the first place. It did feel like everything was just one error after the next, which to me didn't make the experience any less or much better in anyway, shape, or form. To make this long story short, I really hope there is at least something to take away from this experience and move forward with a positive attitude in hopes that I can find someone who will understand me for who I am, in spite of how their past challenges really effected them. I will most likely never want to do this again for a second time, because I did not want to see the person who not only left me with a shattered heart but not knowing where to go forward w/ what happens next in my life.
Other Updates:
Cannot wait to get a new iPhone for my birthday... because my old one keeps having issues with not being able to work like it should & quite frankly, I am ready for something that does not have ANY unexpected shut downs all the time.
Happy Birthday to the sweetest, legitimate, passionate, genuine, amazing, dedicated, hardworking, self less Queen Bee on this planet!! I am so grateful for her example to me in how to see the positive things in every situation and always brings a smile to the faces of everyone around you. Thank you so much for everything that you do to make me a better person in this world. Hope you had an amazing birthday with friends and family!!! You totally rock, don't ever change!!
A new update coming in two weeks from today and I cannot wait to share it with all of you!! Please stay tuned for an exciting post to read & I truly hope you guys will enjoy reading it as much as I will writing it up for you!!!
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