Calmed Down

Conclusion:

As I've posted countless entries about how much this year has affected me, there has come a point in my life where I need to leave it all in the past. I have not enjoyed being in the situation that our world is faced up against throughout these last couple of months and other times- it has left me not having a clue about what to do next. This quote has certainly never rung more true inside my heart than it does now because of how I've made myself feel over the last couple weeks, but also realizing that I cannot predict when things with our invisible enemy will die itself away. 

I have contemplated many times about the perception of how my attitude has changed over time and remembering that there is not much of anything I can do to turn this back to where it came from. It is obvious my life has not been the same like it was this time last year and having a lot of legitimate and wonderful events that I'd prepare to get excited for, but due to the circumstances we are still in--I will have to wait up and see what happens after this craziness is all behind us one million percent. #StayTunedForNextYearUpdatesAboutThis

I am hopeful this time next year we are in a much different place and can look forward into a lot more social activity. I have legitimately liked being able to join with my friends on virtual calls but also w/ the perspective that it is easier to be a part of things than isolate yourself somewhere. I'd never want to make a complete fool of myself because I was too scared about being able to face someone again, which is only a major reason as to why I made the choice to stick with it. I know it is what needed to happen for me and especially with how I didn't want to be consistently told about boundaries when I have had to deal with restrictions like they are. 

If there is one lesson that I've learned from 2020 so far... (Read the quote above and contemplate on how it can be used in your own life!!!) I'm not just here to admit that it has more to do with the crazy pandemic stuff going on, but also realizing I cannot do much about it other than try to move forward in hopes for a better outcome when it is all over with.