It has been a consistent struggle for me to reach a point where I needed to refocus on myself a little bit more than I ever have. I know there is such a treacherous long road for all of us to walk down before we can finally take a breath of fresh air and see what the future holds. It used to be extremely painful for me with reading social media stories about keeping my mental health in tact-- but I can honestly say it never made me feel better about where I needed to be. It always left me with feelings of unfathomable regrets-- in not knowing if those were even for a person like myself, who basically knows little to none about just trying to keep their emotions from not being visibly seen. I can only keep doing my absolute best and if anything comes into my path throughout this new year... It cannot make me feel anymore or less of what the person I want to be down the road.
Miniature Breaks:
I have taken a lot of time to really ponder on the important things in my life and not worrying about other people think. After the emotional roller coaster that we are still on-- I am hopeful everything can become some kind of lesson that I need to keep learning and pushing myself through. I have certainly noticed just slightly differences in knowing it does not clearly matter what strategies or ways, that can make my life a lot easier to deal with.
More Boundaries:
This has been one of the absolute hardest things for me about trying to maintain healthy boundaries with people throughout my life. It has never gotten much easier as this COVID stuff proudly keeps trying to do whatever it can possible to keep me six feet away from those I genuinely love and care about more than anything. It continuously kills me inside more than anybody knows about the real painful struggle I am having within myself to act like it has not that much of a problem. I am really grateful for the patience of my truest friends who make me feel worth of overcoming anything and trying to keep me in a good place!!!
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