LONG STORY SHORT----I reached out to one of my colleagues about a situation that I didn't want to see myself in and received some great advice. I'm not very good when it comes to being socially aware with people's boundaries and trying my hardest to maintain them. It's never easy when someone I have looked up to for a very long time, having to tell you things that you don't want to be reminded about & somehow it has allowed me to take extra time for myself. Instead of going into depth about this, I feel determined to whatever it takes to be a much better council member and advocate for a community that has such a special place in my heart.
After speaking with my mom and other friends, it has definitely given me peace of mind. I may still have a very long road to walk down and yet I am grateful to not be alone in this journey. When it comes to me with expecting a lot from people and then I end up not getting it---I accidentally take things a little bit too far. I am incredibly grateful for the support and unconditional love that my friends have shared with me---during this very emotional time. They have lifted my spirits with their messages of positivity & allowing me a chance to slowly heal from something I didn't want to be resurfaced. I am hopeful with extra time on my hands that I will be able to see the bigger picture and move on with life as anybody else deserves. I am never going to make this mistake again and have a tough decision to make within the next several months, as I continue serving with the best of the best. I am obviously stuck in a position with deciding that if I am choosing to make this experience hard for me as well as others-- it would be really hard to leave behind all the lessons I was able to take away. However, I have one last chance to make a good impression & can just only hope to regain the trust of a colleague that I know needs to heal from this open wound as much as I need to. (To Be Continued)
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