Tough Choice (Revised Post)

 

This quote right here could not be more applicable than at this time in my life. Lucky coming from the many memories and experiences that I was able to have while educating people in our community about issues that affect the lives of people with disabilities on a regular basis. Saying goodbye for at the time seems like an eternity, will only last for a very short time from something I dearly loved so much is a lot harder to swallow than I would have ever imagined, but with that in mind I am grateful for the peace that has come from my Savior, Jesus Christ throughout this brief period of transition. 

In early June of this year, my colleagues and I had just finished up our two day conference taking place at the Zion's technology center in Midvale. All of us had a wonderful time learning with everyone who was there in attendance about self determination among other topics that were being addressed. One of our main colleagues mentioned how some things were not in sync with everyone and at that point, I did not think too much about it. I knew in my heart that everything would be fine and to just keep myself as optimistic as possible. 

Without going into the details about this, I will just mention that due to some unexpected circumstances that were taking place behind the scenes---there was gonna be some kind of a bombshell dropping on us. I didn't necessarily want to see myself in a position that nobody should ever have to face in their lifetime, but I knew in my heart things were not heading where they needed to be. 

LONG STORY SHORT-----The next day after this news was conveyed to me and others, I got a phone call from one of my colleagues to check in with me on how I was doing. They had indicated to me with clarity about some things and little did I know what was going to come at me, within a few minutes after. I immediately felt this peace come over me knowing I could still be involved with this project on a voluntarily basis until things with our issue get resolved. I can participate in the well loved self advocacy conference representing the governor appointed entity instead of what I would be there for. It was comforting to know I would be able to present online sessions if they needed me, along with the truth of not getting paid was a lot harder pill to swallow than I would have liked. It obviously caught me and my other colleagues off guard with being told until our terms with the governor appointed entity are finished, we are not supposed to be involved with this project. Say What???? I was not expecting news like this at all whatsoever and wanted more than anything to change their minds, but I knew it was not going to happen for me let alone anybody else. I was crushed to hear that no matter what I could do in making this better there was no denying how much I had put into what I loved so much-- only to be told things were going to be temporarily put off until the situation is taken care of. 


(End Of Part One)