Free Write

As the summer months kick off, I didn't ever imagine myself writing up as many blog posts as I have in the course of a five year period let alone over three hundred plus entries!!! It has allowed me to endless times to feel vulnerable and share what is in my heart with other people. (Especially all of my closest friends who I truly love more than anything in this world if you ask me!!) There are certainly days when I am not in the mood to write up about anything in my life, because I would feel a little afraid if it didn't come across as uncomfortable for some people who read through my posts. I always feel slightly awkward when I want to share my posts with others, because this blog of mine has turned itself into like my safe haven in more ways than one!!! I have so many upcoming events and activities that are just around the corner waiting for me to convey and express to all of you. I have spent a lot of extra time in trying to keep my blog posts as accurate and current as I can possible, which if you ask me is just one of those things I try to keep hidden from the world. I am so grateful for this privilege that I have to write up about anything I need to remember and keep close to my heart--because if I didn't share anything whatsoever, I would certainly not be the person I am now. It has been an incredible and emotional journey for me to reach these many posts and not feeling a little bit overwhelmed with the progress I have made. I feel so grateful for the sense of peace my blog has given me (even if I don't necessarily deserve it sometimes-- but I am not gonna lie--this experience for me has allowed so much of who I am to come out.) I truly love being able to share everything that I perceive in this world through the eyes of a dancer, disability self advocate, leader, mentor, friend and someone who knows the potential they have to make it through whatever comes into their life path. 

Summer Plans 2021

- Virtual NINJA Youth Leadership Conference (Zoom)

- 29th Birthday (Say What??)

- Family Reunion in Idaho 

- Mini Youth Leadership Conference 

- Special Needs Ballroom?!?! (TBD) 

- Educational Trainings with the Speakers Network (June/July/August)

Progress Made So Far:

I'm trying my absolute best to maintain and keep boundaries within the leadership positions I currently get the privilege to serve in. It has been difficult for me to understand just how important this really is, no matter how many opportunities I get to assist and help in throughout the next several years. I know mistakes will continue to be made on a regular basis and not realizing the way it is going to strengthen, as well as help me to strive harder each day to do a little better. 

Not going into a lot of detail about this, but I have so much more to work on in my life and hopefully once things are settled down-- I'll be able to recognize the bigger picture. I know my visible emotions will never not be a part of who I am because everyone has ups and downs in life, that most of us truly wish we did not have to face against everyday. I know my life has been through an impossible amount of uncertainty and not knowing what could happen next wears itself on my mind more often than I can admit.