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This summer has definitely been one of the most unforgettable and hardest times in my life. I cannot even begin to tell you how emotionally draining it has for me, to just look past all of the mixed and confused emotions I've had inside my heart these past couple of months. I am trying not convey or make a fool of myself about all of this here, I just want to admit that life has taught me a lot of hard lessons that I never expected. It has literally put my faith to the test on more than one occasion and little did I ever think of what could happen next after an experience like this... But I am grateful for the advice that I was able to get from a friend who simply put it this way: 1) Continue to be a good friend and influence the person needed in life. And if they chose to move out of Utah, then I would still want to be that way for them in anyway possible, but also to remember that if I made a decision to let this person go, because at the time it was excruciatingly hard for me to be their friend. And let me tell you the truth here too: Sometimes, letting go is what is best for you and it was perfectly fine for me to care about them and want the best for them, but to never forget about taking care of myself first. I knew in this very moment that I needed to focus a little more on me and not the person whose shattered my heart into a million pieces all over the ground. It was extremely hard for me to be with them when I seriously don't want anything more to do in making the relationship continue on for the next several months. To make this long story short, I am still at one time or another emotionally just struggling with how I could ever find someone else to walk into my life but I can only hope for the best with them. 

Special Needs Ballroom - #BYUSummerDanceSportChallenge

I have been participating in this one ballroom dance competition for the last nine years and cannot even wait for the opportunity to be a part of it this weekend. I am incredibly stoked for all of those many people who have helped us practice really hard every single week and make this an amazing experience for all of us involved. It has truly been one of the most highlighted moments in my life, this summer because there is nothing more fun in this world than getting to show off all of my hard work that we have put into making our dances look nice. I am probably rambling on too much here about all of this, but I am excited for the privilege to let those audience members know that dancing isn't only just for those who are perceived as normal. It is simply for everyone and I cannot wait for another chance to show what it is that I've got in me to pull this off. If you would like to come watch me compete this weekend, I will most likely not post any information on here and put videos on my Instagram account. Please be sure to check those out if you ever get a chance and despite all of the nerves that I have in me right now, it will definitely be worth it in the end.