Writer's Block

I have really struggled this week with keeping my blog updated & sharing my thoughts on what is most important in my life right now. It's been such a stumbling block for me this year as I've had to deal with so many things that I didn't want to see myself faced with again. I can honestly admit this trial of my faith has only made me a stronger and more confident person in the world, than I would have ever imagined myself to be. I cannot even put into words what an absolute emotional and yet unforgettable couple of months where I've had to reflect on the things that I would never want give up at any given moment. There were certainly moments when I had to focus on the Savior's hand through everything that was happening around me and not losing sight of what he could do to help strengthen my testimony of him. Through all of these experiences this year, I've wanted so much more than anything in the world to be like him in everything that I do to live up to his standards & never take it for granted.


He's definitely played a significant role in my life throughout this year w/ everything that made me feel like I was literally at my breaking point with some of the challenges that were in my path. I'm truly grateful for his direction and the advice he's given me to look past what could've easily been one of the most heart wrenching times in my life, because of him I was able to fully understand everything in life happens for a reason. I am grateful for his wisdom and patience with me as I've had to endure so many things that I didn't want to handle at the time, but with him holding onto my hand through this entire process-- I would literally kneel down in such gratitude for all that he did to help me get to where I am today. He has made me feel at peace with myself in knowing there is someone else better out there first for me, to not only make me feel like the happiest girl on the planet but who also loves the gospel more than anything else!!! I am hopeful as time goes by in the next couple of years, that I will find that person who belongs in my life for the rest of eternity when I'm ready for it. 

I'm really sorry for not letting this part of my life get away from me and consistently sharing it with you all, but this has been one of the most difficult things that has ever happened in my life. I've not ever dealt with heartbreak like this before until this last year and so much has reminded me of what this life is really about. We are meant to go through a lot of hard times to help us become a little bit stronger and less fearful about what could happen later on down the road for us. I am not saying it's been easy or the happiest time in my life, but it has shown me that I do not need a young man who's going to hurt my feelings and leave me heart broken without any need of repair. There is somebody else out there who will love me unconditionally, treat me with kindness and consider me to the only person who he wants to spend time getting to know a little bit better everyday for as long as possible, if not more.