Every once in awhile I have participated on these NINJA Alumni Calls over Zoom and catching up with my friends who I never really see in person much anymore. It has been a difficult experience for me after this last week to even think I'm gonna be able handle much more virtual stuff. I know it is the new normal for all of us, which if you must know has been good--but also a struggle for me because I miss getting out in the world and spending quality time with those I love so much. COVID has definitely given me a lot of reasons to feel isolated or excluded from the outside world--which all of us know has not been easy since the start of life being turned upside down.
LONG STORY SHORT---I need to make a decision about what is gonna happen next and into the future with other leadership commitments that I have. It is difficult when I am one of the people helping out and not realizing my participation is important for those involved-- but I know without my assistance, nothing will run smoothly. There is no doubt in my mind knowing if I end up not logging onto the activity-- Am I gonna be the one left behind with consequences to learn from? Will I be forgiven? I will need to just make that choice between now and when the time of this Zoom call begins!!
Lessons Learned (Repetitive Stuff)
I am hopeful things can settle themselves down once Monday night rolls around-- but who knows if I will be capable enough to participate or just simply give up altogether? It would let everybody else who is just counting on me to help and assist with the activity we spent a lot of time figuring out together. I am really nervous about how I will ever be able to face that individual (knowing I made them feel the way they are right at that very moment.) I made the worst mistake of my life this past week and somehow I need to be able to learn from my short comings as well as realize what I can do to be extra cautious in my new leadership roles.
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